Havoc's rants

Mon, 08 Dec 2008 01:19:41 GMT

I'm rewriting and reposting Crimson Rain. And some other stuff. But I need to get a new Fictionpress account.

Drabble

Mon, 01 Dec 2008 15:57:33 GMT

It had been years since he had gone through the torment, the humiliation of having to use his body to pay for the ‘kindness’ that people offered. The nightmares were a frequent thing, but he never woke Morpheus… He was always as quiet as he could be as he made his way outside to calm down. The nightmares were getting more and more powerful though, things becoming more and more out of proportion. At times the tiger would lose touch with whatever he was doing and reality seemed to warp, only to torture and torment his already abused psyche.

That night was no different…

    Daemon awoke in a cold sweat with his hands over his mouth. His childhood this time… His brother’s fleeting back and the last rays of salvation disappearing in the form of a closing door. Tears, crying was all he could do about it anymore. Though he could not stop the shaking of his body, not a sound emerged from his person. The memories brought back feelings of resentment and guilt. Though the young musician had become used to these overwhelming feelings, they still made him sick to his stomach.

    A quick dash to the bathroom, and the emptying of his ‘dinner’, chicken and a liter of vodka, seemed to be his body’s answer to relieving the sickness. Even after he had finished, he continued to stare into the toilet. Still the images were fresh in his mind. He seemed to know from experience that nothing would ever get rid of the feelings he harbored for the people who had damaged him so.

    Slowly, blue eyes moved from the floating contents in the toilet to the man that remained in the bed, unmoving, still asleep. Just in the next room his lover slept peacefully… Daemon couldn’t blame Morpheus for not knowing, he had never told the other man of his childhood. Placing his elbow on the toilet seat and running his fingers into his dark hair the young musician made himself comfortable. Knowing how his body worked, he knew he was going to be there all night.

Wed, 26 Nov 2008 03:28:09 GMT

I was thinking about posting stories again... But I'm really not sure, after what happened I'm still kinda pissed... What do you guys think?

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 17:52:14 GMT

View Poll: Which is Cuter?

Yay!

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 00:35:15 GMT

I am back! I took all of my stuff off of Fictionpress. Someone stole Alex... I almost cried when I saw it. I was actually re-writing the ending to Crimson Rain when I found it and it just killed me inside. I'm not posting anymore stories. I'm watermarking all of my pictures... I'm not sure if it's just me being paranoid or not, but I sure as hell don't want my other characters getting stolen.

Well, I don't really have much to say... It's been almost half a year since I updated, so I though. "Hey, why not update!"

Sun, 20 Apr 2008 21:29:26 GMT

New story and update on Fictionpress. Working on Crimson Rain, and hoping I can get it updated by tonight...

New story:
Under the Desk - Kahle/Ein

Update:
Mercenary for HIre

Crimson Rain

Sun, 13 Apr 2008 18:49:14 GMT

Crimson Rain is one of the most successful stories that I've ever written... And sadly, it's going to end soon... I think it's only going to have about 4 or 5 more chapters. I just want to tell you ahead of time so no one says that they feel it was to sudden.

Stories.

Sat, 12 Apr 2008 15:34:39 GMT

Stories that I'm working on:

Mercenary For Hire - Chapter 2
The first three-some I've ever written... Please be gentle with the comments...

Love for Another - Chapter 5
Kahle and Little Haru compete to get Ein's attention.

Loathed Affection - Chapter 2
Background on Eclipse and Orion's first sexual encounter... CoughRapeCough

Gunner's Paradise - Part 2
Sex.

Encounter - Part 2
Sex.

Crimson Rain - Chapter 23
Ed's in the house... Max is alone...

A Day at the Beach - Chapter 2
Sex.

Upcoming Stuff:

Obsession - A sparring match gone wrong... Deja vu for Orion.

Beat - Faust's concert goes well, until he gets to his dressing room.

Pet - Eclipse's POV about Orion's 10 years of Slavery.

The More the Merrier - Orion's got more than one man admiring him, but how far with Eclipse and Albert go...

The Fox and the Hell Hound - When it's late and time to close up shop, Kro and Kuja are all alone...

Property of the Squad Leader - Ein's days in the army.

Who's the Bitch?! -Kahle may be the Seme, but Ein's still the man of their relationship.

Under the Desk?! -After a long day of work Kahle and Ein just want to relax in Kahle's office. But what happens when a business meeting gets in the way of their alone time...

For the Love of Redheads! -Kahle/Ein dabbles ^o^

Ein's Time of the Year - There's a time of the year when Ein only thinks of the one's he's lost. His time of mourning...

Untold - Ein's life up until he met Kahle.

Rise - Kahle's got his hands full when Ein's old lover, and the love of Ein's life, rises from the ead and tries to reclaim his rightful place with the redhead.

And there's prolly more... But I can't remember everything I'm working on....

Hello All!!!

Wed, 02 Jan 2008 00:56:49 GMT

Hiya guys! I'm happy to say that I should be getting a new computer in the next two months. (Or so I hope...) So I will be able to update my stuff!!! I want to type my story so bad!!! I'm sick of writing in a note book! *Sadness* Well I gotta go cause I'm only borrowning this computer and now I have to give it back...

sorry...

Fri, 14 Dec 2007 23:12:40 GMT

My computer is broken and I won't be updating for quite a while... Sorry.

Wed, 14 Nov 2007 01:40:02 GMT

Well, I'm feeling a little off lately... I just got told I'd be taking prozac, like, two or three days ago... Makes me feel funny, like I have a cold... But the thoughts of suicide are practically non-existant... OH! And lets not forget the complete and utter lack of sleep... I got four hours of sleep... From eight to twelve. But I can't seem to get to sleep when I want too. I'll pass out for two and three minutes at a time then wake up and think I've been asleep for hours... It may effect my writing to, and that would make me very unhappy... Well, I'm super fucked up right now so I won't type anymore right now, cause I keep hitting the wrong keys...

Taking a Break...

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 22:24:16 GMT

I may be taking a break from writing for a while... I'm suppose to be getting a job soon, and I've been having a hard time keeping my stuff updated. I can't just sit down and write anymore... My muse is getting harder and harder to find and that's making it really difficult to write Crimson Rain... The stories still got a good like (at least) 7 chapters left... It's driving me crazy. Oh well, if the story stops updating then I guess that means I've just lost it... Heh. My mind is getting ahead of my hands and I'm not sure how to stop it. Anywho, I don't know how much longer my muse will grace me... So I have to go write now. Bye-bye.

Reposting stuffs! Woo!

Tue, 25 Sep 2007 22:33:34 GMT

I got bored and started fixin' stuff on my old chapters of Crimson Rain. I've already reposted like chapters 1 and 2... I'm gonna try to pry myself away from it so that I can update though...

Slight Rant.

Wed, 25 Jul 2007 05:41:31 GMT

Yet again I'm new to a site... I'm trying to be more social because all my friends are abandoning me, so I need something to help me keep my sanity. I have 2 deviantart accounts: Nephilum (Has Art) and MadeForHavoc (Posted stories). I also have a Fictionpress account: Xhinna. I keep it updated as much as I can. It's all Shota and Yaoi stuff though... I'm just trying to find a way to make some new friends that can help me improve in writing and drawing, but I also want someone I share common interests with ('cause I like to talk...)